Recent days are fairly tough for me. Results from OpenAI really shocked me but luckily I found meself in the end and think much more clearly about my future.

And I am pretty satisfied with my current pure academic dream, at least in the future, except for the collapse of Math itself, nothing will affect my dream.

But there is something really bothering me, the scholarship results are going to be anounced, and grades of the mid-term defense of the graduation thesis take over 30 percent. Actually I really prepared for this and I think I did my best, but the result was quite low, I just don't know why the damn teachers treat me like that, I told an interesting story in my presentation and I made my question and results quite clear, they didn't even listen carefully, yet they have the right to give me a low grade! I hate that and I not only hate the whole atmosphere of the college because only a few teachers have the appetite and a good taste for pure math, even math itself, but also hate the assessment systerm and the three damn teachers who judged me.

And I leave their names here, , they don't know how much their tendency of being stingy with marks has affected me.

But still, I think everything will have a good result, at least they have taught me that I shouldn't care the judgement from anyone who doesn't know what I am doing and these kind of people are just a piece of shit for me.

Phew... Feeling better now.